“God, I’m Tired” – aired on May 27, 2018
Writer: Phoebe Waller-Bridge
Director: Damon Thomas
Grade: 3 out of 5

Notice: All episode reviews contain spoilers
In the beginning of my review of “Sorry Baby” (episode 4), I raved about how efficiently Phoebe Waller-Bridge and her crew moved the narrative forward through the first half of the season, the last one ending with the promise of an upcoming face-off between Eve and Villanelle.
I also posed the following question: “Can the Eve-vs-Villanelle duel, by itself, carry the last four episodes?”
Then came “I Have a Thing About Bathrooms” (ep. 5), featuring that terrific one-on-one scene between the two leads that took place in Eve’s house. It was the zenith of season one, 12 minutes of sublime performances by Sandra Oh and Jodie Comer that left the viewers breathless. Yet, we still had three more episodes to go.
I was further alarmed following the airing of “Take Me to the Hole” (ep. 6). It was the weakest episode in the season leading up to the season finale. The storyline stumbled more than once in it, which led me to note that the show could risk falling victim to its own standards of excellence set by the first half of the season.
As I feared, the season finale “God, I’m Tired” failed to deliver the smooth landing that Killing Eve’s otherwise outstanding season deserved. I could claim to have seen this coming – I expressed it more than once since ep. 4 – due to the narrative structure of the season that was bound to leave the finale with little capital other than another showdown between Eve and Villanelle, but I would be partially lying because “I Don’t Want to Be Free,” the penultimate episode, assuaged some of my concerns by setting the stage for what I perceived, at the time, to be a strong finish to the season.
I turned out wrong, but the episodic structure of the overall narrative was only a small part of the problem. Although not devoid of great moments, “God, I’m Tired” single-handedly misfired on several fronts.
The episode ignored a couple of important arcs, wrote off (if we are to believe Carolyn) a main character in a bizarre scene, dismissed from the screen, less than thirty minutes into its running, the only other fascinating one left in the show (Fiona Shaw’s Carolyn) since Bill’s death in the third episode, and reduced the roles of three other ones down to little or nothing. It drove deliberately toward an extended Eve-Villanelle showdown when it did not have to – see the end of my episode 7 review.
It was a risky move to put all the eggs in one basket, because we already had a first-rate face-off between Eve and Villanelle three episodes ago. If another such face-off was going to occupy the season finale’s final minutes, it needed to eclipse the thrill of the first one. It did not. It was not even close.
It’s unfortunate because the beginning of “God, I’m Tired” showed promise when we joined Villanelle and Irina, Konstantin’s daughter, played delightfully by Yuli Lagodinsky, as they were squabbling over how they wanted each other dead. Never mind that Villanelle had a gun pointed at Irina’s face as they were bickering back and forth, because their dialogue was hilarious and worth every second. Irina was supposedly Villanelle’s hostage, but she is so “annoying,” as her dad confirmed, that it became hard to tell which one of the two was the real hostage. Kudos to Lagodinsky and Comer.
That was followed by another superb scene involving Eve and Kenny showing up in Carolyn’s hotel room unannounced. They catch Konstantin holding a hairdryer and Carolyn walking out of the bathroom as she clips her earrings on. Everyone is momentarily shocked to see each other and what follows for the next 30 seconds is a masterpiece dialogue, between four characters with their jaws on the floor, consisting of a succession of whaaaaat? type of questions coming out of their mouths, most of them going unanswered. Having watched the scene several times, I still marvel at the its brilliance; it is nothing less than Killing Eve at its best.
It should not go unnoticed that throughout the season when Eve and Carolyn are part of the same conversation, Oh and Shaw steal the moment with their brilliant ability to sound so natural while delivering the quirkiest lines (remember, for example, their first meeting at a café in “I’ll Deal with Him Later” and the awkward one as they come out of their hotel rooms and run into each other in “I Don’t Want to Be Free”).
Villanelle and Irina eventually arrive at Anna’s house because Villanelle (Oksana as Anna knows her) wants to reclaim the passport and money hidden in a jacket that she sent to Anna years ago. Instead, she finds a note in the jacket saying, “Sorry Baby,” surely left by Eve who, as we know from the previous episode, had found the jacket and taken possession of the passport and money.
This is also the first time Anna and Villanelle see each other since the tragic event that caused Villanelle/Oksana to get imprisoned years ago, leaving both of them emotionally scarred. Apparently, Anna carried a heavier emotional baggage than her Oksana did, because with Villanelle leading the “I-point-my-gun-at-you” count by 2-1, she decides to shoot herself, stifling the narrative potency of her storyline that had been so cleverly built until that point.
This is also around the time in “God, I’m Tired” when the writing begins to suffer (and this is coming from a huge Waller-Bridge fan). For almost seven full episodes, we reveled in Killing Eve’s ability to maintain a perfect balance between elements of quirk, comedy, and story development. The first half of the finale seemed to live up to that expectation until Anna’s death. From that point forward, while the quirk factor still remains in high gear, the comedy one loses steam, and the storyline turns clunky.
Konstantin and Eve have conversations which amount to a little more than nothing as they are driving toward Anna’s house. Eve asks pointed questions to Konstantin and it leads to back-and-forth chortles. I cringed every time Eve did it, not because Oh cannot chortle, but because it appeared so out of character for Eve (not for Konstantin though).
Konstantin summarizes the driving sequence well when Eve points a gun at him and asks for information while he is taking a piss (and ‘treats’ her – not us, thank heavens – to a view of his penis because, well, Eve would not let him put his hands down at first to “put it back”): “All I know is, that I want my daughter, they want me, and you want them. So, bring me to Irina and they will come to us, ok?” Thank you, Konstantin, for echoing my thoughts at the time: Can we please get on with this?
But “they” never show up when Konstantin and Eve meet up with Villanelle and Irina in a fairly crowded café. “They,” by the way, represents another story arc that seemed to be cleverly built throughout the season, only to have its potency fizzle out in the finale. We never learn anything about “they,” and unless the writing room decides to provide a worthy pay-off in season 2 with regard to who “they” or “The Twelve” are, this incomplete storyline will remain a thorn in season 1’s side.
Another (possibly) dropped storyline is the letter that Katia slipped under the door in prison. There was a considerable amount of attention focused on it in the preceding episode, so I refuse to believe that it will not play a role in the second season. The brief moment in this episode when Kenny notices the guard picking it up on closed-circuit footage gives me hope.
Speaking of Kenny, poor chap may have as well not been in this episode considering how insignificant he is in the few scenes that he appears. He is basically a bystander listening to others speak, barely a few words coming out of his mouth, not to mention that he gets scolded by his mom on the street. For good measure, Carolyn also tells him (and Eve) at the airport to “pack up the London office” when they arrive, because she plans to see the Villanelle case through on her own.
Eve, of course, has other plans because she just received a voicemail from Elena, another main character that does not even get to appear on screen in the finale (hey, at least we hear her voice which is more than we can say about the hapless husband Niko). Elena, through some impressive investigating, obtained Villanelle’s address in Paris, and you know that is where Eve plans to head. In a typical plot-device move, Carolyn and Kenny walk ahead of Eve into the plane from the gate, so that Eve can conveniently decide not to board behind them. Carolyn, one of the smartest characters in the series who should be well aware of Eve’s penchant for ignoring directives, apparently did not think of that possibility.
Konstantin, Irina, Anna, Carolyn, all dismissed from the screen within the first 30 minutes. Just like that we are left with Eve and Villanelle for the extended face-off part deux.
I know that many critics who are enamored with the show found some deep meaning in these last 10 minutes to justify the mayhem that took place in Villanelle’s apartment. Don’t get me wrong, I am also a fan of Killing Eve. It is one of my top three favorite shows of 2018 so far. Nevertheless, I cannot comfortably dismiss my impartiality when I put my reviewer hat on. The profound intellectual interpretation made through the narrow philosophical angle of one person with an emotional attachment to the show in question, especially with regard to the actions taken by characters in it, carries less weight for me than the coherence of the actual narrative.
Eve’s trashing of Villanelle’s Parisian apartment while downing a bottle of champagne is neither narratively coherent, nor gripping. One could say that she was possibly overwhelmed by the sense of power that she felt for the first time over Villanelle. After all, she got to be the one to invade the assassin’s personal space for a change (or… something). Okay, so what’s new? We already knew that she was totally obsessed with Villanelle, and vice-versa. She had sacrificed her marriage, her job, put her colleagues in harm’s way, and lied to her boss and others, all in the name of getting close to her “girlfriend” who, by the way, had savagely killed Eve’s closest friend. I am not sure what this awkward act of wrecking her house adds to that perception. I am with Villanelle all the way when she arrives home and sarcastically asks Eve, “So you trash my apartment because you like me so much?”
The better part of this otherwise lackluster face-off comes in its middle portion when the two women confess their attraction to each other, in their own unique ways. Eve recites the few sentences that we heard a number of times in the promos before even the show began and Villanelle tells Eve that she masturbates thinking about her. It’s brilliant acting by Comer and Oh. Once the confessions are over though, we dive back into the depths of codswallop.
Eve lays the gun down in the bed, the same gun that she had pointed to Villanelle earlier when she told her, not once but twice, that she was going to kill her. Villanelle picks up the gun, holds it, caresses it, and embraces it with both hands as she lays down next to Eve. At Eve’s request, Villanelle promises not to kill her and puts the gun on the floor, out of reach.
Right when things appear to be turning romantic, Eve stabs Villanelle in the abdomen with a knife, driving it deep into her flesh with an expression of hatred in her face. If this is supposed to be a “wow” moment, it succeeded for a split second, only because it made no sense (I actually murmured “seriously?”). The woman who uncontrollably shakes when holding a gun, who had the chance to kill Villanelle more than once in this episode alone (she also pointed a gun at her at the café earlier) but did not, who just got everything off her chest that she wanted to tell Villanelle, and let the gun go out of her hand, allowing Villanelle to pick it up, now decides to turn vicious out of nowhere and kill her via an act that requires a much bigger effort than pulling a trigger? She even gets on top of Villanelle so that she can use her weight to drive the knife deeper for crying out loud.
Oh, but hang on. Our touring of Codswallop City is not yet over. As Eve rams the knife deeper into Villanelle, she suddenly freaks out, exclaims “Oh God! Oh God!” She gets off Villanelle in a hurry, and runs into the kitchen, in order to find something to save the woman she brutally stabbed no more than a few seconds ago. Poor Bill must have been rolling in his grave.
Villanelle, bleeding profusely, falls off the bed as her stomach area turns red, grabs the gun on the floor, and begins shooting at Eve who, for her part, hides behind the wall. And somehow, Villanelle, who was, I repeat, bleeding profusely and rolling on the floor in pain while shooting, disappears from the apartment in a matter of six seconds (literally).
Oh-kay…!
It is an understatement to say that I can’t wait for the second season of this wonderful series. I am just not sure that I feel that way because the first one has been a great ride or because I want to forget as soon as possible the bitter taste left behind by the finale. Okay, I admit, I am exaggerating. Of course, I want more Killing Eve simply because it is a fabulous show. I just hope that season 2 will not lay all its cards down early and exhaust its creative pathways within the early episodes like season 1 did, and as such, will have a better shot at nailing its season finale.
Last-minute thoughts:
– Almost three minutes go by from the moment Villanelle puts a gun to Irina’s head, creating panic in the café, until she finally runs out and away. Thanks to the showrunners for depicting, for a change, a more realistic response time for the police and not ruining the moment. In countless TV shows, cops laughably arrive within seconds of a breaking incident.
– Eve, in an effort to convince a scared Kenny into confronting Carolyn with her, attempts to taunt him with, “Are you frightened of your own mother?” Kenny replies, “Of course! Isn’t everyone?” The brief expression of letdown in Eve’s face is priceless.
– I am glad that Sandra Oh got nominated for an Emmy award, I truly am. But as far as I am concerned, Jodie Comer stole the show, and apparently, there are others who thought so too.
– I missed Bill in every episode since his death. I did not miss Frank one bit. I also hope I will never have to worry about missing Carolyn or Elena for the remainder of the series.
Until next episode…
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